I started rewatching Stranger Things because I wanted to remember what happened before I watch season 5. I thought it’s gonna be boring to rewatch the show but to my surprise, I still enjoy it a lot rewatching the show even though I kinda remember the ending. A good show is a good show regardless how many times I watch it.

I’m grateful for a restful night. I think I slept 10 hours.

I’m grateful for the convenience of the internet as I get to book my trips overseas in the comfort of my home.

I’m grateful that I didn’t just rush into a relationship coz then I wouldn’t have the life I’m having now.

I’m grateful for the flaky men online showing their true colours so early so I don’t have to waste my time on them.

I’m grateful to have a quiet cat.

I’m grateful for a restful night sleep.

I’m grateful for having Vivian in my life.

I’m grateful for my body’s ability to keep everything functional.

I’m grateful that I have money to buy quality food for Happy.

在澳洲住了十幾年，這次回台灣，才發現自己真的水土不服了。

明明是從小到大熟悉的環境、熟悉的味道，卻怎麼都不太對勁。

吃我以前愛吃的食物，胃卻馬上脹氣。看起來沒什麼問題的便當，白飯佔大半，蔬菜少得可憐，油又重。相比之下，在澳洲我幾乎天天自己煮，用好油，少調味，多蔬菜蛋白質，反而吃得更清爽健康。回台之後腸胃立刻抗議。

廁所文化也讓我難以適應。家裡馬桶不能沖衛生紙，每次上完廁所還得把用過的紙丟進垃圾桶，味道永遠揮之不去。

空氣品質也讓我苦不堪言。從清新的布里斯本回到悶熱混濁的城市空氣，身體立刻有反應。再加上馬路上汽機車交織，噪音與油煙夾擊，每次走在路上都像在打仗。

還有，行人地獄真的不是說說而已。走在台中的街頭，常常得走到馬路上，和車爭道。不只是危險，還會讓人感覺「這城市根本不把行人當一回事」。

有人說：「你就回去澳洲啊！」但事實是，我愛台灣。這裡是我成長的地方，有我牽掛的家人和很多美好的記憶。

只是，當你在一個國家生活久了，習慣了那種空氣、空間與生活方式，重新回到原來的地方時，你真的會感覺到自己的變化。

澳洲有很多缺點。生活不方便、店早早就關、沒有夜生活、看病要預約又貴、想唱KTV沒地方唱……

但也正是那種慢、安靜、重視個人空間與健康生活的環境，讓我整個人沉下來了。那樣的節奏，變成了我的日常，也成了我選擇生活的標準。

台灣當然有它美好的地方——離島、花東、溫暖的人情味、便利的生活與安全的街道（至少在犯罪率上）。

如果要我回來長住，或許我會選擇花東或離島這種空氣乾淨、節奏緩慢的地方。

我不討厭台灣，但我也不再是那個能完全適應台灣生活的自己了。

Did inner child meditation and interestingly, I was worried that I might not be able to look after her as I can be short and harsh sometimes especially when I’m tired. But I’m only human and it’s perfectly normal to have negative emotions. I love her with all my heart. She might have crooked teeth and I still love her. She might be stubborn and I still love her. I love all of her.

Had my hair dyed after nearly 20 years! I should be happy but I was just feeling very depressed and tired.

But it’s ok. It’s what I’m feeling right now and I accept it. It’s only temporary and I will feel happy again. It’s the circle of life.